I am tired of giving it my all and it never being enough.
I am tired of “sides”
I am tired of parents who don’t care.
I am just tired.
I am ready to give up.
I am ready to quit.
I am ready for everyone to say what they mean.
I am ready for people to care.
I am ready for everyone to get along.
I am ready for people to understand..
I want to be strong.
I want to be happy all the time.Â
I want to smile more.
I want to rest.
I want to know it’s okay to be going different ways but that we can all still meet right back where we left off.
I want everyone to just join together and get along.
I want those that have done wrong to others to admit it.
I want all the missing children to be found.
I want to know it’s okay to be me and be accepted for who I am.
I want to know that you understand what I am saying is the truth.
I want to know secrets are safe.
I want to say I am sorry.
I want to be a better mom and a better wife.
I want to be back close to my family.
I want to stop feeling like I am a bad daughter for not being able to be there for my mom (let me clarify she does not make me feel this way at all this is my personally).
I want to know how much longer I am going to have to live in Arkansas.
I want to promise my kids I will never raise my voice again.
I want to know that I am doing the best job ever with them.
I want to know that friends are friends through thick and thin.
I need to work on me.
I need to believe I can.
I need to know I will.
I need to feel I have.
I need to be complete
Is it really that hard to accomplish all those things….I guess it is. Â Well I will just be me and let everything else fall into place. Â That’s all we can do right. Â Why isn’t the world a simpler place and why can’t everyone just get along. Â
Wow I think most everyone can relate to the majority of these. I know I can, some days more than others. It can be overwhelming, but yes, being yourself and letting everything else fall where it may is the best way of thinking.
Wow I think most everyone can relate to the majority of these. I know I can, some days more than others. It can be overwhelming, but yes, being yourself and letting everything else fall where it may is the best way of thinking.
I’ve always believed once a frined always a frined. That’s who I am…Toni just be okay with who you are. You’re a wonderful woman and a wonderful friend!
Good luck with that girl. Just be you and try and not worry about what others think. And quit being so hard on yourself. You are a great person and mom.
It’s amazing how many things can weigh on our heart and soul. Isn’t it? We all have our own “I Wish” list. Mine would have a few of the same. I wish you peace, and everyone, including myself.
Sorry to hear you are moving from Arkansas. Scott and I won’t be here forever either, nor are we from here.
Girl, that was beautiful and I often feel the same way! Just give it to God and don’t take it back again! And get some sleep- I really think your work schedule is affecting you and I worry about you (Good Lord, I sound like I’m mothering- sorry LOL)
I just came across your blog, and I wanted to tell you thank you for this wonderful post. It’s almost exactly how I’ve been feeling lately, and in some way I feel so much better after reading it. Thanks.
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oh my dear, don’t be too hard on yourself. you are your own worst critic. I happen to think you’re fabulous!
Toni, what a truly amazing post! I 2nd pretty much all you said… esp about not yelling at my kids again… thanks so much!
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I love yours… and I feel exactly the same way…
I just want it all, and I want it all now… Your wants are wonderful.
Wow I think most everyone can relate to the majority of these. I know I can, some days more than others. It can be overwhelming, but yes, being yourself and letting everything else fall where it may is the best way of thinking.
I hear ya. *hugs*
Wow I think most everyone can relate to the majority of these. I know I can, some days more than others. It can be overwhelming, but yes, being yourself and letting everything else fall where it may is the best way of thinking.
Toni, I could have written A LOT of that on my own post today, I’m having the same sort of day. I just want to give up sometimes…
Hang in there chica!
I’ve always believed once a frined always a frined. That’s who I am…Toni just be okay with who you are. You’re a wonderful woman and a wonderful friend!
Love never fails.
Toni,
I adore this blog post. Thank you.
Amen to that! I tell myself many of those same things every day. I really wonder why I have such a hard time being a better person.
Good luck with that girl. Just be you and try and not worry about what others think. And quit being so hard on yourself. You are a great person and mom.
Ok girl, don’t be too hard on yourself. You are great, and no one can be perfect. Just do the best YOU can.
Well said–I think many who come across this post will agree.
You are certainly not alone in your feelings.
It’s amazing how many things can weigh on our heart and soul. Isn’t it? We all have our own “I Wish” list. Mine would have a few of the same. I wish you peace, and everyone, including myself.
Sorry to hear you are moving from Arkansas. Scott and I won’t be here forever either, nor are we from here.
Girl, that was beautiful and I often feel the same way! Just give it to God and don’t take it back again! And get some sleep- I really think your work schedule is affecting you and I worry about you (Good Lord, I sound like I’m mothering- sorry LOL)
I just came across your blog, and I wanted to tell you thank you for this wonderful post. It’s almost exactly how I’ve been feeling lately, and in some way I feel so much better after reading it. Thanks.
Toni, I adore this post, and I adore you! ((HUGZ!))