~ Tears of joy when seeing that new face for the first time.
~ Tears of sympathy when your child is hurt.
~ Laughter from all the memories of tickle laughs, funny sayings and goofy faces.
~ Hope that their future will be brighter than yours.
~ A life so full of love, a depth of love you never dreamed possible.
~ Frustration when they don’t heed the advice you give which is meant to save them from any pain.
~ Arms to love your child with when that hurt becomes too much.
~ Anger when they test your patience for the 100th time on something you have warned them not to do.
~ Getting pissed at the neighborhood bully who won’t leave your child alone.
~ Taking action and calling the police when that bully hits your child in the face with a rock (oh yes I did).
~ Getting your feelings hurt when your child says “eww mom I don’t want to kiss you anymore, I am too big”
~ Joy when your younger children still lets you snuggle and kiss them.
~ Fear of them experiencing any of the bad memories you had of growing up.
~ Wanting to keep them inside and never let them out to keep them from the horrors we see in the world today.
~ Needing to keep their innocence in tact for as long as possible.
~ Hoping they never make the same mistakes you did.
~ Taking a chance and let them try something new even if you are scared they will get hurt.
~ Making sure to always tell them they did their best even when they didn’t win.
~ ALWAYS LETTING THEM KNOW THEY ARE LOVED AND MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYONE OR ANYTHING YOU DO!!!!
And then at the end of the day realizing every emotion, frustration, happiness, sadness and anger are all worth it when I see faces like these:
To my precious Bella, Aidan and Gabriel:
Yes I get angry, yes I get frustrated, I laugh with you, I cry with you. You bring life to areas in my world that I never imagined existed. I only hope you always know you 3 are the top priority in my life and nothing will ever take your places. I hope you see the love I have for you every day and how proud I am of you all the time. I hope you listen and trust that what I say is for the best and that I only punish you to keep you from hurting yourself. I have all your best interests at heart. You 3 are my world and without you I could not exist. I love you more than words could ever express.